The Vatican and the homosexuality

A proposal for condemning gay-lesbian discrimination is discussed at the UN.
u can find some more info here
or here

What really makes me upset is the position of the "Holy" Catholic Church. It does not really makes sense. Unable to take a clear and steady position, they adduce unbelievable excuse. And still someone (one sixth of the people in the world, actually!) still continue to consider it as "holy". Fortunately when you are far (phisically and culturally) from them all these fundamentalisms affect you much less!

The sense of the past

"Can you one heap of all your winnings
And risk it on one turn of pitch-and-toss,
And lose, and start again at your beginnings
And never breathe a word about your loss?"

Accepting that all you worked for has gone, and there is nothing you can to that can bring it back, is much harder than walking for 30 km a day without food. As I did for seven days this september.

i think, as engineer, of the law of conservation of mass, and i wander... where, all we built up in these two years and half, have gone? It should be somewhere. It cannot have just disappeared all of a sudden.
when you build up a relationship with a friend, every moment or word will remain as a cornerstone in your friendship. Why now is it so different?
I look into myself and i see a bare landscape of a destroyed city. It seems like after a war, where there is nothing than ruins. All the work of the man has been destroyed by the man itself. How can this be possible? I don't dare believe it. It is something u cannot explain, u can't understand. The question of these days is "What is the sense of the past spent together?"
I blame myself for not understanding. I'm sure that if i understood, i would feel better. If i want to understand i have to change my point of view. Looking at the same world with different eyes, That is wisdom. Sorry, but for the moment i can't.

The Paradise Lost

I was told "if you want something, just go and get it". I don't think it is true. Sometimes you have just have patience and wait, because it is not everything based on our own will. In this moment i would like to go to take what was mine, but i can't. I can't because her heart looks towards another direction. This blog was born to deal with philosophical isses, more than personal problem, but my whole mind has just one tought.
I don't know what has happened in the last weeks, but in these days, wandering all around this delightful town i slowly changed my mind. I don't know how it is possible, but it is.
We have just given up. Everything seemed fine until now. But now it is different. I look deeply into the eyes of girls in here, but I cannot find in anybody else what i was able to find in hers.

This is one of the most difficult period of my life.
I talked to her, and this helped me. This night i didn't sleep well, or better, i hardly closed my eyes. I thought all the time, about everything. My mind was a flood, a storm, a hurricane.
I realized that it is impossible to survive without a Hope. If there is no hope, your mind will create it, in order to survive. Even against every connection with the real world, you will hope anyway.
That's what i tought yesterday night (this and many other things). In this moment i need an hope, and even if i searched everywhere, i don't find any other hope than her. In this earthquake of feelings i sometime have a brief instant of light. If I am rational i can realize that she has already gone. There's no way now. If I think how the way actually is, i really don't know how stuff can work out. No way at all.

It's hard to have a long distance relationship. A relationship is staying together. Maybe reading a different book in the same room, silently.
In the last year our relationship was based on spending one hour per day chatting on skype.
You start talking, then you discuss and at the end you argue. If you just talk all the time you often make the mistake of trying to solve all the problem in a moment. Whereas you should take your time, and solving problems one by one. Relaxing, breathing, hugging, sometimes talking, but first of all staying together.
In the last year we just talked (a lot) about the way of staying together. If things doesn't change, all these discussion will turn in a wasting of energy.
We have met, in the last year, just six times. An average of one every two months. Even if i staied there longer in march (a couple of weeks), six times a year is simply too few. Our relationship was frozen, waiting for a spring, that in our mind should have been arriving soon.
I still hope, against every evidence.

Here in Cambridge

Ok, I promised to update my blog in english and i didn't. I do apologize with everyone surfed on my page really hoping to find something different. I am sorry even because something different has happened in my life, expecially in the last summer: i left my job, my girlfriend left me, i take part to a "Goum" and i am in Cambridge now. In cambridge, yes, to improve my fucking low level of english.
Summary of the last two days. I had my luggage lost (wonderful Alitalia!!!) at the Heatrow airport. For this reason I arrived extremely late in the evening in the house where i'll be guest in the next month. I had class today: pretty good as first day. Now i definitely have to find a bike (as cheap as possible) and as soon as possible too. I'll let you know...

My new way

Starting a blog means.... deleting the idea of starting a blog from the "to do list" and typing on the damn keyboard the first post. It sounds like an easy stuff, Isn't it? but exactely in that moment your fingers become suddenly heavy, and and the unsolved question arises: but what????
Wtf should i write on my blog? the problem is that the first posts will determine the "soul" of your blog. Here you decide the "strategic positioning" of your product (to use a consultant-like expression).
Surfing on your friends' first posts doesn't help, but i have to solve the question, and NOW!
Ok, first of all, i don't care what my blog will be. I'm going to write on it just because i put in my mind the objective of improving my english. Very good, i already feel much better: reducing the importance of the task helps to overcome it.
The next step is announcing to the world that my new english blog exists and asking to all my international friends (who generally speaks a better english than mine) to correct me, in order to improve my writing skills. I will be grateful!
Well, now it is public domain that this blog doesn't want to change the world, but only my english level. Do not have too many expectaction on it. Ok?
To give a sort of officiality to the new course of the blog, i will translate its name. My italian friend who does not speak english will not have the opportunity to read my opinion on my blog. I think they'll survive anyway.


Post coming soon
- other interesting blogs i generally read (or i would like to)
- what i am going to do (in the next six months) and why
- Opinion about empirical vs theoretical models and my new idea of the "conceptual neural network" (for engineers only!)
- What's going on in Italy (policies of the northest african country)
- Epistemiological reasons to have a blog (Popper is not just a drug)

"Oggi la ‘ndrangheta, la mafia rurale e selvaggia dei sequestri di persona, è l’organizzazione più moderna, la più potente sul piano del traffico di cocaina (mediando fra le due rotte, quella africana e quella colombiana), quella capace di procurarsi e procurare micidiali armi da guerra e di distruzione, la più stabilmente radicata nelle regioni del centro e del nord Italia oltre che in numerosi paesi stranieri."
Tratto dal'ultima relazione parlamentare della commissione antimafia sulla ndrangheta.
E ancora: "La ‘ndrangheta affronta le sfide della globalizzazione con una modernissima utilizzazione di antichi schemi, con una combinazione di strutture familiari arcaiche e di un’organizzazione reticolare, modulare o, per usare l’espressione di un grande studioso della modernità e della post
modernità, Zygmunt Bauman – liquida".
Potete leggere il resto della relazione a questo link.
Suggerisco a chi vive in Lombardia di andare a pag 190. Scoprirete che l'anello di congiunzione tra le AUC Colombiane e la cocaina, la droga preferita della Milano da bere, è proprio la 'ndrangheta, un'organizzazione criminale che ha radici nel territorio e le mani sui mercati internazionali.
Fatemi sapere

One laptop per cococo

Dopo il fallimentare tentativo OLPC di Joe Ponti di dare un pc per ogni bambino dei Paesi in via di sviluppo a 100$, seguite me. Se siete dei cococo potrete acquistare un laptop per 100€. Non è la stessa cosa ma il pensiero di un portatile a soli 100 euri fa gola anche a me.
A questo link trovate tutte le informazioni per avere i duecento euro di sconto per un pc (qualsiasi pc).
A quest'altro link le informazioni su questo rivoluzionario computer il cui costo complessivo (senza contributo, quindi per tutti) è 300 euri.
Adesso basta fare uno più uno, anzi 300-200.
Queste informazioni sono gratis, e questo è il bello di internet.